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April 24, 2017

Why her 2nd Birthday is harder

My baby is now two!
I say my baby because she will always be my baby
I remember the moment I found out I was pregnant as I jumped around in the bathroom by myself as I wanted to be more than sure before telling Lester.

I remember that feeling of hearing her heartbeat for the first time and seeing her on the screen. I remember calling her my sweet pea.

So many prayers came true the moment I held her in my hands and I’m so blessed to be her mom, and I mean really blessed.
But, I have to be honest, I cried every day on her birth week.

Most of the time happy tears but other, many others, were really sad tears.
Tears that wished I could have my little 6.5 lbs baby back.
I know it sounds horrible and ungrateful, but it’s truly how I felt and feel sometimes.

I’m terrified of the moment I’ll want to kiss her in public and she’ll be embarrassed and I know it will happen because I was once there with my own mom.

Just last week I asked her if she wanted me to carry her and she responded with “hand mama”.

Don’t get me wrong I completely understand that she has to grow up and I enjoy our conversations, her little saying and how she mimics everything we say and do but it’s so bittersweet.

The selfish person in me want to hold her forever, keep her little and avoid at all cost anything and everyone that can hurt her, but the mom in me can’t wait to see her grow up, enjoy life and see her develop in life.

And that’s why two has been harder than one. When she was turned one we were still breastfeeding, she was walking already but preferred to be carried, she still fit perfectly on my hip and chest. Now she is longer, heavier and oh so much bigger.

I now have a full force toddler with personality and a whole lot of attitude.

Now she tells me what she wants and doesn’t want. Now she just wants to grow up. She just wants to be like us and my heart rejoices as I see my little girl learn, and want to achieve so much. She is the smartest little girl I know and as much I wish I could keep her little I’m in love and cant wait to see who she will be one day! All that she will accomplish and all the work God will do in her life.

September 13, 2016

Learning to love yourself.

A few weeks ago I got contacted by an amazing brand to show their products, basically sponsoring me to wear their clothing.
I was a bit surprised.

We are in contact with a few children’s brands who want my beautiful daughter to wear their items, but that girl is beautiful, me in the other hand I’m super conscious and I would even say I lack self confidence to do such a thing.
  I talked to my husband about it and decided to do it!
I followed through with the message and let it be, thinking that they were not going to send me anything.
Little did I know that a week later I received their item. Insert the cute emoji shock face!
Their product fit like a glove, it was amazing and the fabric is super silky, but I’ll leave the actual review for another post.
As I looked for ways to style it and wear I started to feel better about the opportunity I was given. Took the pictures, but I critiqued them up and down.
They were, and are good quality pictures and are beautiful but I didn’t feel confident enough to show them.

I can even go on and tell you my exact thought when I saw them. “I’m not a fashion blogger, nor even close to being my girl Laura who can wear a trash bag and look amazing doing so”
One thing that comes with being a blogger is posting selfies and outfit pictures.
I knew this the day I decided to start this and I was opened to new the new things this adventure would bring, but when the time came I failed to do so.
 A few days passed and as I looked at my daughter and her confident self, I looked at how much she feels and looks as beautiful as ever, I know I biased, and for a second thought about this.
Do I want to give her this example? Is this what I want to show her about her body? She has many of my genes and do I really want to pass my insecurities on to her. Even at an early age they see us. They copy our every move, our every action, and I don’t ever want her to feel insecure about anything.
This is something that as women we go through and we battle it from being a teen to adulthood, and is something that I may not put an end today but I want to do it little by little and step by step.

I want to feel good about who I am and feel confident enough to post a so called selfie and an outfit I loved.

I want to be me, and my true self ,is self conscious but I don’t want to lack of confidence to defy me. To stop me, to suppress all that I can be and then I had my “aha” moment.
The God of the heavens, the creator of everything beautiful created me, simple and plain old me.
He created me beautiful.
He called me His and as my faith leads me to believe He made me beautiful.

Today I invite you today to show yourself, your true you, to take that picture, to wear that outfit or do whatever it may be that has been holding you back

Think of that little person that looks up to you. Think about our creator we are his special work. So YES you are beautiful and so am I.
So go show it off. Show God’s work.