There is a place where fear has to face the God I know!
I heard this song this morning and it was just what my heart needed. I’ve talked about this on here before but if you are new you can read more about it here. My heart has been a little fearful this past year.
Last year I lost a baby so close to me, a baby in our home daycare and it literally broke me to pieces. I have never imagined going through something like this and as much as I don’t want it to affect me I have days where it hurts too much. Where I can’t even think!
I have given that burden to God, but I would be lying if I said that I have never relived that call. Relived that moment! Relived my first the panic I felt, relived the moment where I felt there wasn’t enough air in the car for me to possibly breath in. Everything hurt, everything shattered at that exact moment!
This New Years Eve came but I came with a freedom I had not experienced in a while.
As I sat in church on Sunday my Pastor preached on fear, isn’t funny how God knows exactly what we need and when. He preached on how we are not to fear, on how we need to let those fears go to be able to not only move ahead but live the way God wants us to live. He talked about something most of us know, yet we lack the capacity to apply it.
The bibble states 366 times ” Do not Fear”. No matter the version or language do not fear is there. Even for leap years.
There, on that stage, I left my fear. I left the fear of letting Bella sleep without me. Without waking up in the middle of the night and checking on her more times than I can count to make sure I saw her breath through her belly.
As it marks the anniversary of my sweet angel’s death, I realized once and for all, God wants more from me. He wants me to trust Him fully, to give Him my all, which includes that fear.
That small fear, OK, that giant fear so it can meet my wonderful, HUGE God!
I will fell on my knees and glorified His name. Because when I’m at my lowest is when He glorifies through me!
This is not to say that my fear has miraculously disappeared but I lean on Him to be my steady ground! Maybe you too, you have fear, whether small or big but just remember the God that stands for us. He has given us the strength to make it through one more day, one more tomorrow and one more the next day!
I lean on Him to be my eyes, to be my strength and to be my all.
So what is your fear today? What has been keeping you down?
I hope you listen to this song and use your “do not fear” for today, remember that tomorrow will have it’s own and so will the next day.
If you wish to do the same please feel free to message me and I’ll pray with you and for you!